
It hits me out of nowhere, and for a few minutes I can’t help but think about how nice it would be to be able to call up dad and talk about nothing important. Just chat, and I don’t know, go get a drink together. I don’t know what my dad’s drink of choice was, and as I get older, that seems like a pity.
The nuance of spending half your life without someone is that the older you get, the deeper it stings as it begins to dawn on you just how many things you can’t share.
The Morning Benders Cover The Strokes - “Last Nite”
Celebrating the 10th anniversary of the Strokes’ 2001 debut, Is This It, Stereogum have curated a nice little covers collection featuring new renditions of each of the LP’s 11 original tracks by Austra, Peter Bjorn & John, Real Estate, and others. One standout comes from the incredibly consistent San Francisco indie group the Morning Benders, fearlessly taking on the Strokes’ breakout hit, “Last Nite.” Listen above as singer Chris Chu and friends reimagine the modern garage-rock classic as a danceable synth-pop jam. An MP3 is available with the rest of the compilation here.
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For all the finger-wagging that accompanied Amy Winehouse’s slide into oblivion, it strikes me that she had no harsher critic than herself. What is Back to Black but a chronicle of failures, glumly owned up to? Her American debut, which came courtesy of a free download on iTunes,…
I remember being 16. I’d just learned to drive, inherited the family hand-me-down Nissan and had just enough money from my job at Dominos Pizza to buy a new CD once or twice a month.
I remember being a child in the backseat of the family van when “You Oughta Know” was a Top 40 hit. I remember the shock of vulgarity that swept through the small space when that line (yeah, you know which one) came across the airwaves. The look passed from my mom to my sister was one of disappointment, repulsion. The look passed from Janine to me was one of youthful determination that said, without a word, “Mom hating this song makes it so much better.”
I remember growing up to Jagged Little Pill. When the CD started to skip, a new version always replaced it. My sister related to the original version of the album with every ounce of her 1990s teenage angsty glory. I was in elementary school at the time, and as my sister and I spent afternoons in our shared room listening to the album from beginning to end, over and over and over again, all I knew was that my sister was the coolest person in the world and I wanted to be just like her. If she liked Alanis Morrisette, so should I. Ten years later, it was my turn to get to know the album for myself.
I remember seeing the ten year anniversary acoustic re-release on the counter of Starbucks my junior year of high school, and immediately slapping a $20 bill down.
I remember driving down Blanding Boulevard, windows down, blaring the brilliant string and piano arrangements that so beautifully juxtaposed (or maybe strengthened?) each song, ten years after they were first released. You can hear in each track that Alanis changed over that decade. I had too. I wasn’t a child anymore. The nuance of “Perfect” hit closer to home than it did at age six, and the simple beauty of “Head Over Feet” gained a sincerity that previously was lost behind a pop sound that was, perhaps, a bit overwrought the first time around.
I remember sitting at my piano and playing “Your House,” the hidden track that was originally an a capella expression of earnest desperation. Ten years later, it turned into my all-time favorite. (These days, I liken it to what people often hype Joni Mitchell songs up to be, and ironically, there’s a Joni Mitchell reference about halfway through. But I can’t stand that woman’s voice.)
I remember fleeting moments of realization that Jagged Little Pill was turning into one of the most influential albums of my adolescence, but I don’t remember the exact day that it transitioned into something more than that. Jagged Little Pill evolved over time. Its nuance grew, changed.
These days, I can relate. I’m broke, but I’m happy. I’m poor, but I’m kind. I’m not short, and I’m working on being healthy. I’m sane and overwhelmed, lost and hopeful.
And what it all comes down to, is that everything’s gonna be fine, fine, fine.
My one year anniversary at the magazine is coming up soon (July 19, not that I remember or anything).
When I started, I dreamt of living in Avondale someday. Having my own place. Spending my nights cooking interesting things, watching classic movies, filling my coffee table with issues of Vanity Fair.
And now here I am, in my apartment in Avondale. My magazines sit on a vintage army medical trunk. I’m watching Annie Hall while homemade banana bread bakes in the oven.
It’s unreal, how everybody turned out to be right. When you stop trying so hard to put everything together, it falls right into place.
I saw this from ~20 feet away from the stage. Further proof that I’m luckier than I should be, sometimes. Just remembering it gives me chills.
… you just need to type 1,200 words about how your piano was probably the only thing you’ll ever truly love in your life, and how all you ever want is to spend almost 20 years caring about anything, anyone else that much. To know every nook and cranny, to know instinctively which notes work together and which ones are dissonant. To spend a lifetime turning to something at your darkest moments, drinking the night away. To immediately recognize and correct a wrong move of the fingers. To leave it behind and miss it every fucking day, and spend every day hoping that it isn’t forever and one day it will be back in the living room, just like it was when you were 4 and toddling around, and 12 and facing the hardest loss of your life, and 21 and settling back into your childhood home after earning a very expensive degree that won’t even help you get a job at Carrabba’s.
Sometimes when you’re wine tipsy and all alone in your very nice apartment in a quaint, historic neighborhood that you’ve fallen head over heels in love with, that you paid for with the money you damn well earned at your amazing job at the company you’ve spent the past year with, you just want to be able to sit down at the end of the day and tell your oldest and dearest friend about it through some Justin Townes Earle songs.
But sometimes you just can’t, because you’ve already downed half a bottle of cab sav and Mom’s house is an hour away. And besides… you’ve had writers block for a while and maybe this is just the kick in the ass you needed to move your fingers over a different set of keys.
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